Tag: memory

  • The Flowers in the Vase

    The flowers in the vase are still beautiful, even as they begin to die.

    Their colors have softened, their edges curled inward — as if holding on to what little life remains. Every day they grow a little quieter, but somehow, they still make the room feel alive.

    There’s something haunting about beauty that’s temporary. You can see the way time touches it — gently, but inevitably. The petals fall, one by one, and yet I can’t bring myself to throw them away. Maybe it’s because they remind me that even endings can be beautiful.

    Sometimes I think love is like that — the flowers in the vase.

    We keep it close even after it’s faded, because letting go feels like erasing what once made us feel alive. We hold on to the memory of its bloom, even as it wilts in front of us.

    But maybe that’s what makes it real. The fact that it doesn’t last. The way it hurts to watch beauty fade — that’s proof that it mattered. That it was alive.

    And when I look at those flowers, I don’t see loss.

    I see the softness of something that once thrived, the quiet surrender of something that loved the sunlight so much it stayed open even as the light disappeared.

    Maybe beauty isn’t in the bloom after all.

    Maybe it’s in the staying — the way we keep something long after it’s gone, just to remember how it once made us feel.

  • Regret is My Constant Companion

    Regret walks beside me

    like a shadow that never learned

    how to leave when the sun comes up.

    It knows my footsteps,

    matches my breathing,

    whispers the names of moments

    I wish I could touch again

    with gentler hands.

    I carry whole conversations

    that never happened,

    apologies folded small

    inside my chest,

    waiting for a door

    that doesn’t exist anymore.

    Sometimes regret is loud—

    a storm of what if

    crashing against the ribs

    until sleep feels impossible.

    Sometimes it is quiet,

    just a chair pulled out

    at the table of memory,

    sitting across from me

    without speaking,

    and somehow saying everything.

    I used to think regret

    was punishment—

    proof that I had ruined

    the only life I was given.

    But maybe regret is only love

    with nowhere left to go.

    Maybe it stays

    because something in me

    still cares enough

    to wish I had chosen

    more gently.

    And if that’s true,

    then regret is not my enemy.

    It is the part of my heart

    that refuses to become careless.

    The part that still believes

    even broken people

    can learn how to hold the world

    without hurting it.

    And maybe one day

    regret will loosen its grip,

    not because the past changed,

    but because I finally did—

    soft enough

    to forgive the person

    who didn’t know

    how to be me yet.

  • Cigarette Burns Slow

    Photo Credit-Bogdan Cotos

    Cigarette burns slow—

    like regrets that don’t scream,

    just smolder in the quiet

    until you notice the damage.

    They don’t rush.

    They take their time

    etching memory into skin,

    into hours you thought would pass

    cleanly.

    Smoke curls like excuses,

    soft, convincing, temporary—

    but the mark stays.

    Always does.

    Some pain doesn’t explode.

    It waits.

    And by the time you feel it,

    it’s already part of you.

  • I Called, But There Was No Answer

    I called, but there was no answer—

    just the hollow ring

    of my own hope bouncing back at me.

    The line stayed open,

    silent as an empty room

    where your name still hangs in the air.

    I rehearsed what I would’ve said,

    every apology, every truth,

    but silence swallowed them whole.

    Maybe you were busy living,

    or maybe you were learning

    how to forget the sound of my voice.

    I let the phone fall to my side,

    realizing some distances

    aren’t measured in miles—

    they’re measured in unanswered calls.