Tag: finding peace

  • Summer Sun

    The summer sun

    never asks permission.

    It spills across the fields,

    warms cracked sidewalks,

    finds its way

    through half-open curtains

    and into rooms

    that forgot what light

    felt like.

    It doesn’t rush.

    It simply arrives.

    Steady.

    Certain.

    The kind of certainty

    I’ve spent years

    looking for

    in people.

    I used to think

    healing would feel dramatic.

    Like lightning.

    Like fireworks.

    But maybe

    it looks more

    like summer.

    Slow mornings.

    Warm air.

    The smell of fresh-cut grass.

    A breeze that reminds you

    the world keeps turning

    whether you’re ready or not.

    There is something comforting

    about a season

    that doesn’t ask you

    to become anyone else.

    It just invites you

    outside.

    To breathe a little deeper.

    To remember

    that not everything beautiful

    has to fight

    to exist.

    So I stand there

    beneath the summer sun,

    letting it rest

    on all the parts of me

    that spent too long

    hidden in the shade.

    And for one quiet moment,

    I stop searching

    for what comes next.

    Because this warmth,

    this breath,

    this ordinary afternoon—

    is enough.

    Maybe happiness

    isn’t always something

    you chase.

    Maybe sometimes

    it simply finds you

    standing still

    beneath the summer sun.

  • Where Is My Mind?

    Where is my mind?

    I swear

    it was here yesterday—

    before the overthinking,

    before the memories

    started rearranging the room,

    before every quiet moment

    became another place

    for my thoughts to wander.

    I search for it

    in unfinished conversations,

    in songs

    I should’ve stopped listening to,

    in old photographs

    that remember

    more than I want them to.

    Maybe I left it

    in a version of my life

    I never got to keep.

    Maybe it’s still sitting

    at a table

    where I thought forever

    meant forever.

    Or maybe

    it’s buried beneath

    every expectation

    I couldn’t live up to,

    every mistake

    I replay

    like changing the ending

    is still an option.

    Some days

    my head feels

    like a house

    with every light on

    and nobody home.

    Every room

    filled with noise,

    every hallway

    echoing

    with questions

    that don’t have answers.

    But every now and then—

    there’s a moment.

    A deep breath.

    A quiet sunrise.

    A laugh

    I didn’t have to force.

    And for a second,

    everything settles.

    The noise steps back.

    The weight

    loosens its grip.

    Maybe my mind

    was never lost.

    Maybe it was just

    buried beneath

    everything

    I never gave myself

    permission

    to put down.

    So I’ll keep looking.

    Not for the person

    I used to be—

    but for the peace

    I’ve been carrying

    inside me all along,

    waiting

    for the noise

    to finally make room.

  • Happy

    I forgot

    what happy feels like.

    Not joy—

    I remember flashes of that.

    Moments.

    Temporary things.

    I mean happy

    in the quiet sense.

    The kind that settles in your chest

    without needing a reason.

    The kind that doesn’t feel borrowed

    or fragile.

    Lately, everything feels measured.

    Every smile examined

    like I’m trying to decide

    if I actually mean it

    or if I just got good

    at performing okay.

    People ask

    when I’ll finally be happy

    like it’s a destination,

    like one right choice

    or one right person

    is supposed to unlock it.

    But maybe happy

    is smaller than that.

    Maybe it’s not fireworks.

    Maybe it’s peace.

    A morning

    where your thoughts

    don’t immediately turn against you.

    A laugh

    that doesn’t feel forced.

    A moment

    where being alive

    doesn’t feel so heavy.

    And maybe

    I’ve been chasing

    the loud version of happiness

    for so long

    I forgot to notice

    the quiet kind

    still trying

    to reach me.