Tag: fear of being loved

  • Twice as Hard

    Love is tough—

    it asks you to show up

    even when you’re scared,

    to stay open

    when closing would hurt less.

    Love risks rejection.

    Misunderstanding.

    The quiet fear

    that giving your heart away

    means losing parts of yourself.

    But loneliness—

    loneliness is twice as hard.

    It doesn’t argue with you.

    It doesn’t leave suddenly.

    It just settles in,

    fills the space where voices used to be,

    teaches the walls your name.

    Loneliness makes everything heavier.

    Decisions.

    Nights.

    The sound of your own thoughts

    when there’s no one to interrupt them.

    At least love gives something back—

    warmth,

    connection,

    the chance to be known,

    even if it doesn’t last.

    Loneliness gives nothing.

    It only takes.

    Time.

    Energy.

    The belief that you matter to someone

    outside your own head.

    So yes, love is difficult.

    Messy.

    Risky.

    But loneliness is harder—

    because there’s no one to hold your hand

    through it,

    no one to remind you

    you’re still here,

    still seen,

    still worth choosing.

  • The Only Bad You’d Ever Done

    The only bad you’d ever done

    was see the good in me—

    a version of myself

    I didn’t believe in,

    a softness I’d buried,

    a light I swore

    I didn’t deserve.

    You looked at me

    like I was something worth keeping,

    even when I was all sharp edges

    and quiet storms,

    even when I pushed you away

    just to see if you’d stay.

    You loved the parts of me

    I learned to hide,

    held the pieces

    I was ashamed to touch,

    saw something whole

    in someone who felt

    always broken.

    Maybe that was the problem—

    you saw the best in me

    when I was drowning

    in the worst of myself.

    Maybe the only bad thing

    you ever did

    was believe

    I was better

    than I knew how to be.