Category: Love & Loss

  • Burning Quietly

    Johnny Cash said

    love would burn—

    and I believed him.

    I pictured fire

    the way people talk about it—

    warm, golden,

    something that lights you up

    without taking anything

    you can’t replace.

    I thought it would feel like passion.

    Like heat in the right places.

    Like something alive

    that made everything brighter.

    I didn’t know

    fire also destroys.

    Didn’t know

    it could get inside you—

    under your skin,

    in your chest—

    and stay there

    long after the flames die out.

    Now it’s not a blaze.

    It’s embers.

    A slow, aching glow

    that won’t go out,

    won’t let me forget

    what it felt like

    to be close enough

    to get burned.

    Because loving you

    wasn’t loud in the end.

    It didn’t explode.

    It just kept burning

    quietly—

    taking pieces of me

    with it

    until I realized

    I wasn’t warming up anymore.

    I was breaking down.

    And maybe

    that’s what he meant—

    not the kind of fire

    you stand near,

    but the kind

    you don’t notice

    is consuming you

    until there’s nothing left

    that doesn’t ache.

  • I Miss the Idea of You

    Maybe I miss your lovin’—

    or maybe I miss

    who I was

    when it felt like enough.

    It’s hard to tell

    what part of you stayed

    and what part of me

    never really left.

    Because it wasn’t just you—

    it was the way

    everything softened

    when you were near,

    the way the world

    felt less heavy

    for a while.

    Maybe I don’t miss you

    the way I think I do.

    Maybe I miss

    the quiet in my chest

    when I didn’t have to question

    where I stood.

    The way your name

    used to feel certain

    instead of distant,

    instead of something

    I turn over in my mind

    like it might change shape.

    I catch myself sometimes—

    reaching for something

    that isn’t there anymore,

    like memory

    still believes

    it can touch you.

    And maybe

    that’s the truth of it—

    I don’t miss

    what it became.

    I miss

    what it was

    before it broke,

    before it turned

    into something

    I had to let go of.

    So yeah—

    maybe I miss your lovin’.

    Or maybe

    I just miss

    the version of us

    that didn’t know

    it wouldn’t last.